#Work life Balance
My burnout story - what's worse?
I don't know how to relax. I don't think I ever have, actually. Everytime I try, I think of the things that I am not doing and I feel like I have a list of things that never ends. I start to feel very very very guilty about the things that I am not doing—like doing the laundry or cleaning or cooking or eating healthy or keeping fit. I don't know when things changed like this but this hypersensitive urge to keep doing things is ruining my life. My career is fine, but I think it's my career that's ruining my personal life or the lack of a personal life.
Go to the gym, eat healthy foods, finish work on time, impress someone who can be a potential partner, make your parents happy, finish those loans, sleep on time (which again is a hassle because who gets to sleep anyway?) clean the apartment, cook your own meals, save money. I feel like there's no end and there isn't a break. This is affecting every area in my life and I don't see an end. And what's worse? I feel like I'm not allowed to feel this tired because everyone is in the same boat anyway. I'm just trying to do my best, and it's hard. It's so so hard.